She asked me who I had
ever had a crush on and I
couldn’t say Susanna Hoffs
from The Bangles, barely
as big as her guitar and
possessing the comeliest
of vulnerabilities – because
if it was ever the case
it was only for an instant.
You couldn’t say I ever
really held a candle
much less the eternal flame.
So, to my shame, instead I said
that I couldn’t name anyone and had
always just had a crush on Pop Culture
in general. A terrible line, naff,
fucking stupid, not sexy and terminally
uncool. The joke no one laughs at,
a hazy shade of wonder. Which is
so often the way when
you’re telling the truth.